New Job, New Perspective!

Yes, DH is finally starting his new job on Monday, and he’ll stop eating my packed lunches! But, I will also be starting a new job in a couple of weeks! It was a hard decision for me to leave my current role as a freelancer. I love what I’m doing, the people I work with are great. However, with the inevitable cost of IVF, I needed to find a role with benefits. Continue reading


Things are looking up!

DH had his last day of work on Saturday. His demeanour is a complete 180! I’m so thankful for all of your prayers and support. I’m beyond relieved that he’s so much happier than he was a month ago, and he’s stopped taking his anti-depressants. I didn’t think such a simple (although drastic) change can help DH feel so much better. He’s back to his old happy self, making jokes, and bashing my Dallas Cowboys (I think I need a new team!). Continue reading

Driving and Reflecting

When I visited my in-law’s vacation home last weekend, I had to drive about 4.5 hours to get there. I drove by myself because the timing just didn’t work out with my SIL. I wasn’t too excited about the drive because I hadn’t driven the route in a few years. DH usually does the driving. After I got out of the city, and horrific holiday weekend traffic, the drive was actually really nice.

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The deed is done

It’s done! DH quit his job today. We are now officially a one income family – with me as the breadwinner. I never thought I would be in this position. DH and I have had a couple yelling matches about what his next move should be. I think he should be looking for jobs that’s related to what he wants to do. Whereas, he just wants a job because he wants to work. He thinks it’s bad to have a gap in his resume, so he’d rather take any old job. I completely disagree with him. I think he should take some time off, and figure out what he truly wants to do, and then start applying for work. He’s also talked about going back to school before, so I’m trying to encourage him to do one or two courses at the local college to see if it’s something he wants to pursue full time.

This is the first time God has truly tested us. It’s been rough, but I know in my heart we will come out stronger.

I can’t…

DH didn’t go to work again, so that’s two days in a row of calling in sick. I know he’s been struggling, and he needed to make a decision on what he wanted to do. So he’s decided to quit his job flat out. I wanted him to take short-term disability instead of quitting his job. But he just won’t. He’s too afraid of what people will think. He’s too proud to claim he has a disability. This really frustrates me because it feels like he didn’t listen to what I said at all. He had a chat with his parents today, and his mom doesn’t think he should take disability, so his mind was made.Sadness Continue reading

I don’t need to have children

I discovered today that my 31, almost 32 year old husband is like a 4 year old child. He was recently prescribed anti-depressants to help him with his anxiety, and depression. He was instructed by his doctor twice, not once, but twice, that he should only take half a pill because he did not feel well after taking one full pill. So what happens today? He takes one full pill by mistake because he said he wasn’t “thinking”. To be honest, I think he was just too lazy to cut the pill in half, and thought he can handle it since he’s been taking the pills for about three weeks.Patience Continue reading

Today is the perfect day to start living your dreams…or not.

I saw this image on my Instagram feed yesterday just after DH and I had a chat about how he was feeling. If I had saw this image before our conversation, I would be all for it. But alas, I saw it after, and I just felt defeated. At the end of our conversation, well, I ended the conversation, DH said “well, we’re not having kids any time soon anyway”. To which I said, “we could be trying to have kids, and could have a child by next year if you wanted to”. The only response I got was a shrug. Continue reading